Return of Insomnia

Since after I had fall sick few weeks ago, my sleep time became a major problem when I stopped depending on medication to rest. In additional, during my trip to Sitiawan make things worse PLUS been disturbed by unseen "spirit(s)" when I was trying to sleep too.

Because of all these and afraid of unseen "spirit(s)", I slept at 5 a.m. every night (averagely around 4:15 a.m). Insomnia had returned and struck my life again.

When I need to sleep early to work for the next day, I couldn't make myself sleep without medication. However, I did not simply took medication to make myself to go to sleep. I am not a drug addict as many presumes that since I need some pills (drugs) to make me sleep, I might become addicted. NO, I wasn't that kind of person who took pills (drugs) like candies.

On Sunday night, I only slept for 3 and a half hours - when return to work, I gave excuses that the weather was hot until unable to sleep well (but it was a fact that on certain times, I can't fall asleep if the weather were too hot or too cold). While on Monday night, I only slept for one hour and forced myself to wake up and prepare myself to go to work.

Today, at my work place, I required to mark my students' PACEs since the management changed duties of monitor(s) and Ivan resigned from his job due to personal problem. When I mark my students' book, I almost knock out because my eyes started to close up. When I returned home, I took some rest before I went for my dinner and now online while updating this post.

I really hope that I can return to my normal sleep once more. I don't wish to keep insomnia-ing that often because it will cost my work performance to "get low" and unable to get salary increasing. Without doubt, I will not depend on pills (drugs) too. To all of you, please don't misinterpret this blog post as it has nothing to do with addiction.

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